Right now

Dead inside, how are you?

Trying at least

staying here

Trying to feel something

Tired.

Noticing you noticing.

Sorry you have to see it.

Want something more myself, yes.

Wishing I could just 'shrug it all off' too

Wanting to move forward with more energy, too.

Pretty sure 'wishing it were so' isn't how it happens.

Trying at least.

Moving forward at least.

Breathing in and out at least.

By the way, the breathing s*** got harder.

Mostly just standing around with dead eyes

Hoping so much you're just happy without me right now.

Just all by yourself, you know?

Because that's what I need most of you right now.

Until I get back to me.