Why do men want women who can easily fit into cupboards? Seriously, what is up with that?
You know what I'm talking about
You see them
Women with bottoms the size of children's character pillows.

Yes, I'm an idiot, dad

What killed me was that
In all that him calling me an idiot
For not handing him the right God d**** Philips screw driver
He neglected to appreciate
Him being able to
Ask his daughter
In his house
Next to his car
While being employed by his job
Through not being in any jail
For crimes he didn't commit
While being married to his Wife,
(My mother, still alive,)
He could legally f***
Any time he wanted to
He said I was an idiot
In his legal God d**** life
He could walk away from anytime he wanted to
If he was dissatisfied with
For WHATEVER reason
Yes.
I'm an idiot, dad.

Calm SO CALM

There's so many things I need to remember
like getting hot cocoa to calm myself down for the emotional abuse of the customers at that one place
Watching videos of room tours
Playing that game with the pet rooms to calm myself down
Listening to all that music
I've meticulously wrote down
To calm me down
All the movies
I remember,
To calm me down,
The scenes or even book titles,
That in a pinch,
Might calm me down.
I want to remember all these things
I need to remember all these things
Because I may need to
In the future
calm down.
Right now
I'm not so calm
but what movie
film
book
scene
sense
smell
sight
word
phrase
person
thing
ANYTHING
Do I  use
to calm me down?
Oh
The doll house when I was young and I played in it and there was innocence between a boy and a girl and grass and youth and lack of disease and pain
I'm calm.
Yes I'm calm
For now.

Stranger: Hi, it's seems like you have a lot of problems, what are you prepared to do about them all?
Me: Get drunk, watch a lot of useless online gifs, videos, then message and or stalk random people from my past who can't ultimately positively affect my current situation in life.
Stranger: Solid plan for a loser.
Me: ;)

I care

They care
I'm sure they care,
They care all the time,
Look at them God da## caring!
They're caring up the place!
They're, there,
Right there!
There over there caring right now!
They care so much....
Those F**** caring people,
They break my F**** heart.
See,
I care too.
I care so much!
Oh!
See me caring over here!
Why don't you notice my caring!
Hey,
You,
Over there
F###### notice my caring...
So my caring..
It's not the same as their caring...
Is it?
No,
and in fact,
They don't actually care,
Because I'm just a tool,
A F****** tool,
That, uh, well, here's the embarrassing part,
Actually f**** cares....

Eh

I'm so sorry I care!
I'm so sorry I loved you!
I'm so sorry I checked up on you!
I'm so sorry I knew you
Existed
Still, in fact exsist
I'm so sorry you once knew me
That I'm a sh#% stain on your memory
I'm so sorry I'm ____
I'm so sorry I love you.
I'm so sorry I adore you
At one pointed looked into your
Blue eyes
Your brown eyes
At your blonde head
Felt your gut against mine
Held your hand in mine
Talked to you
Laughed with you
Knew you
Wanted to see you
Was near you
Even breathed in the same breath at the same moment you
Sighed
No
I'm not sorry
Because I'm still alive
And I still love you
I lie
and have lied
But my lips have never touched yours
So aren't you the lucky one,
eh?

Someone

I know this guy
I love this guy
I've hugged this guy
I've listened to this guy sing
I wanted to be with this guy
This guy is thousands of miles away
Just to get to this guy I would have to pay half my pay check
Ever cent would be worth it though
I want to be near this guy
Nothing about this is worth it.
Nothing.