Calm SO CALM

There's so many things I need to remember
like getting hot cocoa to calm myself down for the emotional abuse of the customers at that one place
Watching videos of room tours
Playing that game with the pet rooms to calm myself down
Listening to all that music
I've meticulously wrote down
To calm me down
All the movies
I remember,
To calm me down,
The scenes or even book titles,
That in a pinch,
Might calm me down.
I want to remember all these things
I need to remember all these things
Because I may need to
In the future
calm down.
Right now
I'm not so calm
but what movie
film
book
scene
sense
smell
sight
word
phrase
person
thing
ANYTHING
Do I  use
to calm me down?
Oh
The doll house when I was young and I played in it and there was innocence between a boy and a girl and grass and youth and lack of disease and pain
I'm calm.
Yes I'm calm
For now.