Eh

I'm so sorry I care!
I'm so sorry I loved you!
I'm so sorry I checked up on you!
I'm so sorry I knew you
Existed
Still, in fact exsist
I'm so sorry you once knew me
That I'm a sh#% stain on your memory
I'm so sorry I'm ____
I'm so sorry I love you.
I'm so sorry I adore you
At one pointed looked into your
Blue eyes
Your brown eyes
At your blonde head
Felt your gut against mine
Held your hand in mine
Talked to you
Laughed with you
Knew you
Wanted to see you
Was near you
Even breathed in the same breath at the same moment you
Sighed
No
I'm not sorry
Because I'm still alive
And I still love you
I lie
and have lied
But my lips have never touched yours
So aren't you the lucky one,
eh?

Someone

I know this guy
I love this guy
I've hugged this guy
I've listened to this guy sing
I wanted to be with this guy
This guy is thousands of miles away
Just to get to this guy I would have to pay half my pay check
Ever cent would be worth it though
I want to be near this guy
Nothing about this is worth it.
Nothing.

You ever look at a picture and say
"That's not me."
Because the you that you thought would be captured by any working camera
Would capture a creatue so decrepidict......

You

All these spans of mininutes
You tell me now
You tell me I can't do that
You tell me I can't do that
You tell me I can do that,
Yes I can in fact do something
I just want to please you
And in effect
I want that pleasing to fill the void
The void we both know is there
The void no one speaks of
And yet so many do
And then they tell you to STFU
And in the end of the day,
In the end of your life
You realize compasssion was the real key
Maybe
when it was all maybes
And mixtures of compassion
with too many periodes of ureliable happiness
And annoyance/

Tocay

Quiet down you awful thoughts
You may be awful
You may be caught
A thousands legions
I have yet to walk
I think right into you
The one I fought.
Fuck all
Fuck some
The way it is
IT'S ALWAYS BEEN DONE
Leave me be
The only presnt I want
Fuck off now,
to say
to talk,
The way I am
is only
'Or so I've been taught'

I like coffee mugs with inspirational quotes.
that way when i fill it full of alcohol
I can believe that someday I won't be an alcoholic
The one I'm drinking out of now currently says 'aim high'
I sharpie marked out the 'a' later on
Now my cups don't lie
Later I got a mug that says 'i do what I want'
yup

Anyways

This is who I used to be
This is who I used to be
There she is!
In that place!
In that persons car!
In that store
In that pizza place
In that house
Smoking
Talking about how he just found out, it's not cancer,
 Stroking his chest
Wondering where this was all going,
Like everything else
Feeling in control
Sure
And I sit here,
Sitting here
Not being there
nowhere near the same
Hoping of something different
That same feeling
When all the feelings I have
Is that it's all slipping away
Anyways