"I'm not touching you!"

Awww
non consensual (sort of, very sort of) spontaneous, sensuous eye contact by coworkers
Adults version of "I'm not touching you!"
"I'm not touching you!"
"I'm not touching you!"
Can't tell mommy....

That's what I meant to say

They say you look at the hands of someone you love, first.
I noticed your small hands the second I met you
Sweeping down to an unannounced sweet crescendo
Mentioned to me shortly after you birthday that fall
I love you
I love you
I love you
That sweeping savior of feeling
Like transcendental  emitted peace and happiness in one moment of eye contact
In the crowd of the dying

I miss You ____ (Place I use to live)

I miss the indie channel
With all the strange international shows
That always ended up just being about sex and drugs
But with interestingly calming music and an intellectual air to it.
I miss trees,
I miss hills,
I miss moisture
Not snow
I don't like that kind of moisture
I miss friends
People I connected with
i miss happiness

Not the dog

You get to the point where you're very willing to point fingers at whose responsible for your deep, unsettling unhappiness.
is it the husband?
Is it the job?
Is it the lack of counter space?
Is it the look that one person gave me?
Is it the bad tasting wine?
The book I ruined by watching the movie?
Whose fault is it that I'm not where I rightfully should be?
Who the h does a women have to cuss out to get some happiness around here?
It sure as h is not the dog

Cntrl F

What does time feel like?
A knife
A knife dragged accost your stomach your stomach at each moment of the day signifying for all you know the second of the minute you likely think you just wasted.
The minute you likely feel like you just wasted.
The minute you feel like you just wasted
Being with the wrong man
In the wrong job
in the wrong house
in the wrong body
But not with the wrong dog
No she's beautiful
Nothing wrong with her
But yes,
This minute
Is not infinite
and who did you waste it, on?

Person I like

Why I am looking at a picture of _____ (famous news reporter) at 1:37 pm, in the afternoon, on a Wednesday, on my second glass of wine, after googling a past doctor in my life and listening to smash mouth?
Good questions!
Because I have tinnitus
Serverish chronic pain
(REOCCURRING NOW, Relapse, F what you want to call it, B word for emphasis, YES  FOR Emphasis ) LOVE YOU NIGHTTIME NIGHTMARES ON THE ONLY DAY I GET OFF THIS WEEK, Truly FU SUBCONSCIOUS!
And depression. Don't forget that, mf.
There's a dog upstairs that desperately wants to learn tap dancing,
But only has three legs.
There's a women in here
WHO WANTS TO LEARN BALLET
But is fat
And (don't use and as the beginning of a sentence since it's a separator, not an opening, idiot) there's a man at a desk somewhere married to her who wants more than his MIDDLE CLASS Fing income
but I'm cool
So cool
SO COOL!
"How can I help you m'iam?"
PAPER OR PLASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Charles Buckowski was my FAVORITE man! Yes! HIM!
GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT???????????
So I'll stop.
Because there's softer music coming on now
I have to start my new job tomorrow
DOING THE WORLD A FAVOR AND ALL PAYING TAXES CAUSING NO LAW BREAKING AND GOING TO work (No food stamps for me, sir, I'm good! I SAID GOOD DAY TO YOU SIR!)
and I'll talk to you later, person I like.
Maybe I'll f*** that man who orders online groceries from Wal****.

What needs to be done

My name is ____ and I will do what needs to be done
Because I do what needs to be done
I do what other people "Most certainly will not!"
I will get done what needs to get done without hazmat gear
I will do what needs to get done without any courage
With streaming tears
Without encouragment
But at times,
I will do what needs to be done WITH bravery
With courage
With stick-to-idness
I will do what needs to be done with Sh### flowing over my shoes
I will deep unclog your nastiest toilet,
Clean that vomit,
Say hi to that one person you know who I'm talking about
I will do what needs to be done
Behind a counter,
On a phone,
In the middle of traffic
In front of your face,
Without thanks,
Or pay check
I will do what needs to done
Because my name is ____
And I honestly don't know how I lived this long
And would like to see how far I can take this
And I most importantly don't what to see you have to do
What needs to be done
Because you don't have to,
When you ___