Everyone hates you, ____ just smile.

The point is that I could do all this to my body,
Just not do anything at all.
Just live exactly as I see fit
I could in fact
Just not give a
Then just live
Take every right given to the max of the human knowledge
And abuse the rights  given from one human to another,
I could take this and that
Leave nothing,
Without remorse,
I could do all this, without a care.
Live and live and live until I die.
Or I could try
And fail
And be hated
And still have to smile
Still have to try
Still have to be patient,
Still have to be understood,
Still have to wait,
Still have to give,
Still have to trust,
Still have to talk it through,
Still have to show up on time,
Still have to pay all my debts,
Still have to leave a tip,
To shave,
Bath,
Brush my teeth,
Pick up after myself, even when no one is watching
Still have to be generous,
To be loving,
And still be hated
Or I could just do nothing
And be loved, falsely, maybe
Be ruthless
Die friendless
And be very, very, very much out of love with myself
Or I could just be hated
Be truly, truly be misunderstood
And have to smile anyways
Because there's nothing else to do when you're that hated
Which is where I'm at now

You can't keep running

You can't keep running just because this situation sucks.

But I like running.
I've become good at running.
I save to run.
I plan to run.
I write eloquent emails just so I can run in two weeks.
I make the best snap decisions in my life when I finally decide to run.
I love running.
Running feels so real, so nice, so happy, so complete, so now.
Running makes me so happy.

But running brought you here. You're not happy.

Don't you see? All I have to do is run again.