Him again

I love you. I didn't want to love you. You came into my life at a desperate time. Your eyes spoke the truth. The light there spread through decades. I haven't been able to do this without you but somehow I've seemed to have made it. You make a being smile inside me I only visit out of sheer bravery. Jut by remembering the warmth of your smile. Take me down the depths that keep me floating here.

The Semi Happiness

In the semi happiness, there are lies you tell yourself--there are amendments made on behalf of forging forward. In the semi happiness, there is unforgiveness of small social blunders. In the semi happiness, stereotypes are accepted, nonsense pondered, half truths told, fast response and easy truth given. In the semi happiness, just enough will suffice, acquiescence will do, fishy friends resurface due in part to unguided judgment. In the semi happiness, too much is acceptable, and too little analyzed but maybe I have it wrong.

Comfortability does not sit well with me. Integrity is compromised, complacency lives there. It moistens the walls of depression and leads to alcoholism.